Where Did This Come From?
Updated: Jul 16, 2018
Life... I can't even explain how unfair life can be. When I think about life, I think about the weather because it's so unpredictable, even when you think you know what the forecast is supposed to be. Have you ever been driving down the street and it’s a beautiful day outside -- not too hot, not too cold, but just a nice, sunny day! But as you're driving to your destination you start to see some dark clouds, then you hear thunder and see raindrops hit your windshield.
But you're like, "oh it's just drizzling it should stop soon."
Then, out of nowhere it starts to downpour. I'm talking about raining so hard you can't even see what's in front of you. So you have to pull over because you don’t want to get into an accident.
Well I think this is exactly how life works. Everything is going great in life -- you are actually living your best life, bills paid, relationship great, reading your Word, skin poppin', eating healthy, edges grew back lol you are living life in every way! Then, you start to see a dark cloud, and from that point on it seems like everything is going downhill. Like I mean you're at a point where you just feel like you can't take it anymore.
You find yourself saying, "Lord where did this come from?"
You feel like you have been doing just about everything right, so why is this happening? I tithe, I volunteer, and I'm a good person I don’t deserve this.
I was doing good Lord... Rain was not in the forecast... What's going on?
See what I have learned about these storms in life is that God puts us in these situations so we can depend on him. I believe that in life, God breaks us down to the point where we know it was only him who got us through because it was no way we could have done it alone.
I'll give an example of one of my "where did that come from" moments because I have plenty to choose from! Lol..
After I graduated from high school, I went to college at Bethune Cookman University. I loved this school! I made friends, experienced life, made the dean's list and received academic scholarships every semester. I was living my best life. I can actually say I was happy for once in my life...
But then a dark cloud came out of nowhere and ruined everything I had worked so hard for.
I was leaving my friend's dorm room walking to my dorm, and I saw a black SUV parked on the side of my dorm. At the time, a new dorm was being built in front of my dorm, so to get into the dorm you had to walk around the back. So as I walked passed the SUV, the window came down and the guy driving called me over. I politely said, "oh I'm good and tried to walk a little faster."
Long story short... that didn’t work at all...
Two of the three guys got out the SUV and pinned me against the side of my dorm and sexually assaulted me. I tried to hit the window I was pinned against hoping someone would come to the window, but of course, no one was in the room. I did manage to get away and get to my room. I was scared and honestly, I felt like it was my fault. So, I didn’t tell anyone except my homegirl whose room I had just left.
So the next morning, me and my friend met up for brunch. After brunch, I was walking back to my room, and of course the three guys from the night before were at my dorm and yelling my name out of the SUV. I promised them the night before that I was just going to my room to get some medicine for my headache and I would come right back out. (that’s the short version of how I got away) When I heard my name and saw them, I ran across campus to my friend's dorm in tears and shaking. I called my mom and told her what happened. She told me to pack my stuff because her and my sister are on the way to get me.
It was still a month left in the semester. Since I left school early, I received zeros for every remaining assignment including any final tests. So my grades suffered, and this was the first time I didn’t make the Dean's List. I felt like my life was falling apart. I had to move back to Virginia where people assumed I moved back because I wasn’t doing well in school. I didn’t tell many people what happened because I was embarrassed, so I let them think what they wanted.
But let me tell you something, no matter how bad the rainstorm is, it has an end date and things will be even better than before the rain. I believe that every rainstorm you go through, and every time you have to pull over in life, it's just God repositioning you for greater things.
If we could keep driving through the rain we would. That’s why I believe sometimes God makes the storm so bad that we have no choice but to pull over and call on Him. The good thing is, storms don’t last forever. Once the rain clears up and the sun starts shining again, you will see a rainbow and you will know without any doubt that God is the reason you got through it.
My "where did this come from?" moment was tragic, but God got me through it. I have learned so much from that situation and it took time to get where I am now. But let's be honest, for a while I was angry with God. I felt like God had done me wrong. "Why would he let this happen to me?" I felt like the storm was never going to end..
BUT IT DID! GOD TURNED MY RAINSTORM INTO A RAINBOW!!
So remember, no matter how bad things may seem right now, there is a rainbow coming. Just keep trusting God.
Scripture- Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth. ~Genesis 9:16
Song- Gracefully Broken- Tasha Cobbs Leonard