Smiling is one of my best traits. I am the type of person that will smile no matter how I'm feeling. I have learned that if I smile then everything seems like it's okay. But in all honesty sometimes my smile is as fake as a four-dollar bill.
I am very bad at showing my emotions and it makes people feel like I have it all together, when at night my pillow has seen more tears than you could ever imagine. I will never forget how many days I have smiled and pretended like everything was okay and went home that night and contemplated about taking my life.
But the older I get the more I realize that it's okay to be in your feelings.
It's okay not to have it all together. It is okay to have a bad day and not put on a fake smile. The thing is that in those days when things are not going right you must continue to lean on God and trust in him.
God will never put more on us then we can bear. So, in those moments when absolutely nothing feels like it is going right just remember everything that we go through has a purpose. You may not know why now, but just trust God because he will never leave us astray.
Recently, I had a day when I just couldn’t smile, I tried so hard to act like everything was okay, but it wasn’t, and it showed. I was stressed out because I already have a lot on my mind then this particular day I was trying to prepare for my conference, and nothing was going how I planned it to go. I mean nothing!
I got in my feelings and allowed it to ruin the rest of my day. When in all honesty I should have just said Lord, I know you have a plan, what I wanted to do didn’t work the way I thought it would, so I'm going to just continue to lean on you. But I'm human so I got in my feelings and had a terrible day.
All I am saying is that when things don’t go right it is okay to feel a way, just don’t let that mood control your day. Also, it’s okay to not have it all together. And always remember your test will turn into testimonies so be strong and keep smiling.
Scripture- No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. ~1 Corinthians 10:13
Song-Reckless love ~Cory Asbury